How did it start?

Hi Jackal!I'm basically an atheist, but maybe not all the way out. I mean as rational i am i just can't rule out that some other beeing(s) created life here on earth. Though then I need a way for the god(s)to have started out, leaving me back at start again. So i'm basically an atheist, again I could say that I believe that when I die there will be nothing left of me. As having a blackout one never returns from. But there is one thing bugging me, and that is the fact that we feel things and are aware of our surroundings while alive. I think this is very peculiar.So in order to answer the question "what will become of me when I die?", I need to address the question of what this awareness is.
I see two main alternatives:1) It's something that arises from complex interactions between our braincells. But how could this be ? My braincells are a physical, while my thoughts seem to reside at another plane of existance. So I really cannot see how my interaction between the physical world could connect to this other world of will. This also has other problems. How can the "Me" make changes in then physical world? I mean how could my will affect electrons inside my brain? This drives me crazy. Seems like we do not have free will after all. Anyhow if awareness is just a function of complexity of cells, then when the cells die, so do awereness. Hence nothing left after death.or...
2) The very buildingblocks of universe some how contain the aspect awareness. Awareness is then a fundamental part of the physical world somehow. But here im just out in philosophical speculation.
Here death might still not be the true end of awareness, maybe some parts remain slowly withering away...Well thats it