Then how many must feel this "spirit" for it to be considered existent?
"Feeling" it doesn't matter. You need to quantify it. Until you can quantify it, we can't do science with it. It remains in philosophy or one of the other soft studies.
I approve of your meta-journey, don't get me wrong. But I strongly urge you to start keeping good records. A journey needs a journal. Write down every metaphysical experience you have, particularly dreams. Write down relevant aspects of your life that seem to relate to these experiences. Numbers are important, if you can't get a good count of this or that, estimate. When you can get a good count, estimate
and check against the count, to see how much margin of error you normally have.
Particularly keep track of what you are consuming. I don't mean just the psychedelics like marijuana or mdma, I mean everything. Not only nicotine or alcohol or caffeine either, carbs, proteins, quality and quantity. Beans vs meat, corn syrup vs real sugar. Are you understanding me?
Keeping a good record means you can do charts and graphs and overviews which tell you what is really working and what isn't. Not keeping a good record means that none of the teachers you are wishing you had is going to take you on, and none of the students you would like to earn are going to get any value out of you except cotton candy ignorance-validation.
Edited by Iblis, : "The universe is an intelligence test."