I understand that I can't get everything I want I even understood that then... However as I said God never so much as seemed to even care about my existence.... He never gave me comfort...
I mean What would you say to a father that just Sat back and did noting for and never showed them that he cared at all? (like my father and mother) We called my father a dead beat Dad.... should we call your God a dead Beat God? After all He never at all showed me he cared for me at all....
He still gives you other things what you really needed and maybe with your prayers don't come true, it gives the best result for you.
So what your saying is it God that my life better? Last I checked it was hard work that did it.... I only Became a better person AFTER I stopped believing... was it Gods plan for me to become an Atheist/Agnostic?
Even as Christen I never understood why people thank God for the food they are about to eat.... I mean Last I checked I worked my BUTT off to put that food on the table... The only one I have to thank for that is myself as far as I can see...