Degrees of Faith?

I find that spending ones life ensuring one gets into a mythical heaven is such a waste of the one and only life we are aware of.
Believe me, I want to believe in heaven too. I have wanted to since my father was tragically killed many years ago when I was a child.
However, the truth is he died and he didn't come back. He was our family's strength and without him, we fell to pieces. We suffer from it still.
The thoughts or beliefs that he was in heaven did nothing to help a young widow with five young children. It did nothing to help my broken heart. My mother believed in god and she believed her husband's death was man's doing, not god's. I believe she was right and we are still doing it. We have to get real and look at what we are creating here and now.
The faiths and beliefs in God, heaven, hell, angels, spirits etc. could all very well be true but how does that help us create a better life now? We can only create in awareness (through consciousness) if we are to take control of our one life and our one world and our one human race.
Purely from my personal experiences I do believe in a creator but not a creator with rules and control over me. On the contrary, I believe the creator is the creative force (or energy) that is the essence of everything. I believe this force is the force of change and by god, you can't stop that, can you? Bless us all. Enjoy the ride.

I did not come to my conclusion through the bible or any other book. I reached this conclusion through my own personal experiences and do not need it verified, although I do think the act's quotation is spot on.
For me the emphasis lies with the force rather than the essence. I do not percieve this force as having a gendre as essence suggests, but a force that is all powerful and cannot be anything other than itself. Edited by dameeva, : No reason given.