Who to believe , Ham or Ross?

i've decided that my position on evolution vs creation is this.human beings and every other living thing are ultimately COMPLETELY reducible to chemical reactions. how do we work the way we do? how do we have thought? why are we different from rocks? are we different from rocks? do we just assume that we are the only sentient things? (i know for sure that most cats are entirely sentient. they have deep eyes full of thought and often sorrow.)i must assume that there is something that makes us different from rocks. i haven't seen any rocks do calculus and yet i can so...so this is my point (finally). if i am different from a rock, it must be something greater than chemistry that makes me thus, because the chemistry is often the same. therein lies god. who is he? what is his name? what is he like? i know this only through the half-insane meanderings of my head and my delving into various forms of folklore (including the bible). i merely know he exists and thus deserves my all. not because he is good or loves me or anything else. simply because he is and he accomplished something i can't even fathom.