I just think that because time is such a precious thing then why spend so much of it on something you cannot bring yourself to believe, why not put your energy into something else?
What about taking a science degree and attacking this hugely erroneous theory from inside?
There must be a few prizes up for grabs to anyone who can disprove evolution, there's something worth spending time on.
The thing is, you seem to have already made up your mind about this and nothing will change it.
Good luck anyway.