I have learned a lot from interaction with other people concerning my personal faith and belief in God. In 1993, when I made a serious proclamation to God in front of a large group of people, I actually experienced quite an emotional catharsis and believe to this day that I became aware of God more fully at that point in time.
While I respect those who always put internal logic and critical thinking skills ahead of any so-called Leaps of Faith, I am glad that I took my leap. I believe that God is real and personable. I don't need to hear a verbal voice in the air or even a confirmation from another human to verify that God is real.
At EvC, Jar has given me a different insight into faith that I had never encountered before. Almost Jewish.
There is a learning curve for a beliver which starts at what they have been taught and ends at what they actually decide to believe.
Of course you have heard it said that an untested faith is a weak faith.
One of these days, I will clarify and expand upon this topic more thoroughly when I make a belief statement in the columnists corner.
To answer your question as to how close I am to my God, I can only say that I am unaware of Him being near or far...He just is.
I would declare Him to be much nearer to me than Him being distant and unknowable, however. He speaks to me in so many different ways.
“There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, "Thy will be done," and those to whom God says, "All right, then, have it your way” --C.S.Lewis