Mammuthus, I'd like to see you genuinely believe that Syamsu is wise and pleasant, in spite of evidence to the contrary. But apparently you don't have the freedom to decide what to believe that way.
"Egos drone and pose alone, Like black balloons, all banged and blown
On a backwards river the infidels shiver in the stench of belief.
And tell my mama I'm a hundred years late; I'm over the rails and out of the race
The crippled psalms of an age that won't thaw are ringing in my ears"
-Beck