That's progress though - the beginning of realising that we need to make the best of what we are and not invest so much into impossible fantasies. You've been unlucky to have been born in a sophisticated country with contradictory unsophisticated and very primitive beliefs.
You would have done better being born either in my Muslim village in the Atlas mountains where your beliefs wouldn't be challenged, or a 'nice' village in the Home Counties of England where your beliefs would be so flexible that they can't be threatened by anything.
Je suis Charlie. Je suis Ahmed. Je suis Juif. Je suis Parisien. I am Mancunian. I am Brum. I am London.I am Finland. Soy Barcelona
"Life, don't talk to me about life" - Marvin the Paranoid Android
"Science adjusts it's views based on what's observed. Faith is the denial of observation so that Belief can be preserved." - Tim Minchin, in his beat poem, Storm.
Finally, look at the many professionals who have degrees in Theology and Divinity and Philosophy who earned Doctorates in religious studies. Do you really think they dont believe?
Pretty much 100% of divinity and theology students are believers - or at least that's my experience sharing a flat with one. And what they learn is not what they preach - most believers would call what they teach heresy. I'm surprised they survive.
I guess im just puzzled why you alone (with a few others) concluded the way that you did.
quote:According to sociologist Phil Zuckerman, broad estimates of those who have an absence of belief in a deity range from 500 to 750 million people worldwide. Other estimates state that there are 200 million to 240 million self-identified atheists worldwide, with China and Russia being major contributors to those figures. According to sociologists Ariela Keysar and Juhem Navarro-Rivera's review of numerous global studies on atheism, there are 450 to 500 million positive atheists and agnostics worldwide (7% of the world's population), with China having the most atheists in the world (200 million convinced atheists).