Conversations with God

Dear Phat,
I know you are supposed to pray using words and show that you are making an effort and all that, but most of the time when I pray it is more like the meditation form...like 'practicing the presence of God'. I guess I see it as praising God...just clearing my mind and giving my thoughts over to resting in the goodness of God.The closest I can get to explaining my inner confirmation is that I can sense an eternal and inner joy which has remained constant and of the same quality in spite of changes in my life and personality. This sense of calm is more important to me than asking God for trivial things; it often puts them back into their proper place as 'trivial'.There are times when I have asked God for trivial things, of course but I am confining myself usually to asking for good things for other people if it seems like the person will lose heart or become depressed at one too many failures.The odd thing though is that lately I have been on a roll of having good things happen in ways that I did not ask for or that I did not think of myself. Life is never perfect, but I feel like some of the things I used to agonize over as far as personal choices, have been solved for me without any effort on my part. I like to think of the parable which says 'consider the lilies of the field. They sew not nor weave, yet I tell you Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed as one of these'.