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RAZD Member (Idle past 1436 days) Posts: 20714 From: the other end of the sidewalk Joined: |
My doctor said: "To be honest, all that exercise is probably helping your anxiety more than the medication I've given you... but don't stop taking it." Another alternative is cannabis oil (without thc) by our ability to understand Rebel☮American☆Zen☯Deist ... to learn ... to think ... to live ... to laugh ... to share. Join the effort to solve medical problems, AIDS/HIV, Cancer and more with Team EvC! (click)
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cannabis oil (without thc) Well that's no fun!
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Phat Member Posts: 18354 From: Denver,Colorado USA Joined: Member Rating: 1.0 |
Speaking of addictions, there was a time in my life that I was addicted to marijuana.
I have no regrets as to the addictions and habits of my past, but now that pot is legal in my state, I find that many people are drawn towards this high that probably never were enticed before. Im not sure if pot addiction changes the brain dramatically or not, but I recall that it was impossible for me to quit for the longest time. Of course, I may have subconsciously not wanted to quit...which is, in essence, step one.Chance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul "A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes." —Mark Twain " ~"If that's not sufficient for you go soak your head."~Faith "as long as chance rules, God is an anachronism."~Arthur Koestler
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Phat Member Posts: 18354 From: Denver,Colorado USA Joined: Member Rating: 1.0
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ringo writes: Your definition does call addiction a "disease". If it doesn't cause any dis-ease - i.e. ill effects such as pain or death, then who cares if somebody chooses to call it a "bad" habit? Again...an addiction is an addiction because we have lost control of whether or not we indulge in it...be it good or bad. Today is Day 348 of my sobriety from compulsive gambling. Allow me to share a story from just last week. I was driving home from the doctor when a clear urge to buy a $50.00 scratch ticket arose in my mind. Rather than ignoring the feeling, as I have learned to do in the past year, I contemplated it. Before long I justified it because I reasoned that since I was fixated on it it surely must be a sign from God...or a confirmation of my desire. (First mistake) I actually allowed myself to pull in to the convenience store and retrace the addictive steps i used to always do. I literally---at that moment---wanted to buy that ticket and I was furthermore convinced that it was no ordinary impulse. (Second Mistake) Upon approaching the counter, I was informed that $50.00 tickets were sold out. Suddenly I was faced with a decision to buy other denominations. I refused, turned, and walked out of the store....something I would never have been able to do 348 days ago. In conclusion, I realize that I need to always be diligent and not allow my mind and excuses to sabotage my success. I would never have guessed that an urge would arise in me this late in the game.....nor that I would actually lie to myself in order to justify the desire. One Day At A Time, friends. I am thankful today to remain sober.Chance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul "A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes." —Mark Twain " ~"If that's not sufficient for you go soak your head."~Faith "as long as chance rules, God is an anachronism."~Arthur Koestler
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Upon approaching the counter, I was informed that $50.00 tickets were sold out. Suddenly I was faced with a decision to buy other denominations. I refused, turned, and walked out of the store....something I would never have been able to do 348 days ago. Successful mindfulness! Congratulations! Keep up the good fight.
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Phat Member Posts: 18354 From: Denver,Colorado USA Joined: Member Rating: 1.0 |
I'm almost at the one year mark. In one respect, I feel proud that I overcame a lifelong addictive habit. In another respect, I feel disappointed. All of the science told me that I would change and grow. It seems, however, that I have become more aware only of how much more needs to be done. I never signed up for this gig! Where is the damn blessing?
*sighs* Maybe I'll just give it more time! I have another goal this second year. When I get my courage up to suffer some more, I'll fix my diet for good...eliminating high blood sugars. One would think it easy to eat right...but for me, this often proves elusive. Stay tuned...Chance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul "A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes." —Mark Twain " ~"If that's not sufficient for you go soak your head."~Faith "as long as chance rules, God is an anachronism."~Arthur Koestler
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RAZD Member (Idle past 1436 days) Posts: 20714 From: the other end of the sidewalk Joined:
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Courage my friend.
I'm almost at the one year mark. In one respect, I feel proud that I overcame a lifelong addictive habit. In another respect, I feel disappointed. All of the science told me that I would change and grow. ... Seems I read somewhere that it takes 3 years ... and even then you will have flash-back urges occasionally. I remember getting an urge to smoke 30 years after quitting ... and I was not a heavy smoker.
Maybe I'll just give it more time! I have another goal this second year. When I get my courage up to suffer some more, I'll fix my diet for good...eliminating high blood sugars. One would think it easy to eat right...but for me, this often proves elusive. Stay tuned... Always good to focus on new goals as old ones are achieved. Enjoyby our ability to understand Rebel☮American☆Zen☯Deist ... to learn ... to think ... to live ... to laugh ... to share. Join the effort to solve medical problems, AIDS/HIV, Cancer and more with Team EvC! (click)
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jar Member (Idle past 425 days) Posts: 34026 From: Texas!! Joined:
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Keep on keeping on.
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When I get my courage up to suffer some more, I'll fix my diet for good...eliminating high blood sugars. One would think it easy to eat right...but for me, this often proves elusive. What worked for me was avoidance and major routine change. I got rid of the "bad" food in my house and replaced it with only "good" food. Then I changed my daily routine to include only eating good food. It sucked for a little bit, but once it became routine it was pretty easy to maintain. Then, once you start getting a return in the form of feeling a lot better, you'll have a great positive reason to keep doing it (as opposed to doing it to avoid a negative reason). Once I got to that point, I never looked back. Then it goes from a change in routine to a change in lifestyle. Once your lifestyle changes, it's harder to change back and easier to keep on it.
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Phat Member Posts: 18354 From: Denver,Colorado USA Joined: Member Rating: 1.0
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So I stopped by the Celebrate Recovery Group meeting and shared some encouragement with the group members (who also shared with me)...I am somewhat of a celebrity in that I have nearly a year under my belt...and I received my 1 year chip symbolically tonight!
Chance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul "A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes." —Mark Twain " ~"If that's not sufficient for you go soak your head."~Faith "as long as chance rules, God is an anachronism."~Arthur Koestler
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You did not see me or hear me, but I gave you a "standing o" in front of my workstation.
Keep plugging bro! Under a government which imprisons any unjustly, the true place for a just man is also in prison. Thoreau: Civil Disobedience (1846) History will have to record that the greatest tragedy of this period of social transition was not the strident clamor of the bad people, but the appalling silence of the good people. Martin Luther King I never considered a difference of opinion in politics, in religion, in philosophy, as cause for withdrawing from a friend. Thomas Jefferson Worrying about the "browning of America" is not racism. -- Faith Some of us are worried about just how much damage he will do in his last couple of weeks as president, to make it easier for the NY Times and Washington post to try to destroy Trump's presidency. -- marc9000
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Phat Member Posts: 18354 From: Denver,Colorado USA Joined: Member Rating: 1.0
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New Cates Eye writes: I got rid of the "bad" food in my house and replaced it with only "good" food. Then I changed my daily routine to include only eating good food. It sucked for a little bit, but once it became routine it was pretty easy to maintain. Join me over at my new topic and we will start my next self-improvement effort. Today is Day #1! Health 4 Life~The Science Behind ConsumptionChance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul "A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes." —Mark Twain " ~"If that's not sufficient for you go soak your head."~Faith "as long as chance rules, God is an anachronism."~Arthur Koestler
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Tanypteryx Member Posts: 4451 From: Oregon, USA Joined: Member Rating: 5.5 |
Well done!
What if Eleanor Roosevelt had wings? -- Monty Python One important characteristic of a theory is that is has survived repeated attempts to falsify it. Contrary to your understanding, all available evidence confirms it. --Subbie If evolution is shown to be false, it will be at the hands of things that are true, not made up. --percy The reason that we have the scientific method is because common sense isn't reliable. -- Taq
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Phat Member Posts: 18354 From: Denver,Colorado USA Joined: Member Rating: 1.0 |
I dreaded writing this post, for I have (had) accomplished so much this past year and nearly everyone was cheering me on and congratulating my accomplishment.
It has, in fact, taken me two months to even be able to talk about what has happened since my one year mark. It was not what I consciously planned or envisioned. I failed. Not just a little, but BIG! In retrospect, I believe that I relapsed due to an unfulfilled sense of entitlement. I honestly felt strongly that I deserved a reward for that year of hard work. So I allowed myself to gamble again. The plan, of course, was not to keep doing it. I had honestly convinced myself that God or fate or destiny or something was going to reward me for my efforts. To me, the year of sobriety did not feel as good as I thought it would...until now, where I mourn its loss. Now I am worse than ever. I am frustrated yet defiant. I don't really have the will as of today to attempt another year. Let alone a few days. I am failing, I can't seem to get a grip on sanity, and I am desperately praying for some fantasy or blessing or magic to erase these tortured feelings and to bring me back to sanity. Anyone reading...please don't offer advice. I got myself into this mess and somehow must find a way out. One lesson I have learned is how easily the brain resumes its old patterns. I am humbled by how much I did accomplish and wonder why I can't seem to do it anymore. I likely won't post anymore until and unless I climb out of this quicksand and get at least 30 days in again. To be honest, at this point I don't even feel like fighting.Chance as a real force is a myth. It has no basis in reality and no place in scientific inquiry. For science and philosophy to continue to advance in knowledge, chance must be demythologized once and for all. —RC Sproul "A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes." —Mark Twain " ~"If that's not sufficient for you go soak your head."~Faith Paul was probably SO soaked in prayer nobody else has ever equaled him.~Faith
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jar Member (Idle past 425 days) Posts: 34026 From: Texas!! Joined:
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Get to a Psychiatrist. Not a Pastor, not a Counselor, not a Psychologist; a Psychiatrist. Seriously. Help is there.
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