But here is a suggestion.
You seem to be walking a wonderful path towards enlightenment and it's likely that many, many others are on the same journey. Your earlier posts and those you will make from here on may well mean the difference between someone coming to understand GOD and wandering off either into bigotry or total disbelief. They may well make a difference.
Use them well. Let them stand as examples of the mistakes of youth. Let them stand as comparisons between you then, and you today. No one will think less of you, many will admire you and perhaps, just perhaps, your experiences will be useful to someone else.